I finally got in to see a sports doc and had ART done today - active release therapy. It turns out I was right with the stupid IT Band, kind-of sort-of. When the injury first happened I probably tore or pulled part of the IT band that wraps around to the front/side of the tibia. I ignored the injury which resulted in massive irritation, inflammation and getting a bone stuck in the wrong place. Yea that's right, I guess muscles tightened up around where my tibia connects to my knee and locked something into place, this probably happened during my 14 miler when I ended up collapsing on that leg but who really knows for sure. What we do know is my bone is stuck is some toxic/damaged muscle mass and is making me hurt and limp....so the solution is to un-stick it. You were right Seth :) well, with the something stuck unstick part.
The doc kept telling me to rank my pain as he massaged...and a sick twisted part of me held back from disclosing the true ranking. It hurt, it hurt pretty damn bad....probably along the lines of a 9 or 10 but all I could spit out was a 7 maybe 8. I was enjoying the pain and didn't want it to stop. It wasn't the annoying throbbing and stabbing pain I've been experiencing mid-night, during swims or when I first get up to walk. Instead it was this deep soothing burn that I had been longing for. God, I miss training. After the deep massaging I got an ultra sound done on the area and then iced for 10 mins, at this point my leg was uber pissed off. As I'm writing this my leg is still uber pissed off. I've been given instructions to ice 10 min every hour or so, do a specific deep tissue calf stretch and REST. Mother$&&$# haven't I rested long enough? I was instructed not to run or bike until I get into see the doc again, which will be this Monday. Ugh...that puts me at 14 days of now lower body cardio, this is killing me.
I'm trying to stay positive. I know that if I don't allow this to heal I will be seriously messed up all season and all my goals will take a dive down the porcelain god we all crap upon. It's very difficult though...I feel like I'm missing out on everything. I feel like someone has reached inside and gutted out my heart. Blah. I have so many aggressive goals for this year and I feel them slipping away. I once inquired about the amount of training, speed/intensity work I'd need to do to hit my time goals for Canada. The response was to stay healthy and keep my endurance up - I was already well within my time goal limits. Then why the %^#$^ am I stressing? I have this...I just have to rest. Resting is such a mind %$#@ I feel like I'm on taper....we all know how that goes.
Back to being positive. I bought the bike last week, a new car has been on my list for some time so I think I will buy one this weekend. I'm trying to fill up my whole weekend with positive things so that I don't end up downing a couple bottles of wine or a fifth of Crown Royal which both sound rather appeasing at this moment. Tomorrow I thought I'd start my day off right by joining my boss for a morning swim before work. I'll try to allocate every hour of my weekend with productive rest, if that is possible.
BTW, I would like to thank all my friends, far and near....my family and family from work. Everyone has been so supportive, I don't know what I would do without you all.