Taper day 16 - WTF???!!!

Morning swim
200 warm up
2 x 100; fins; rest 15
6 x 50 drills; A-ok, Fist, Karate; rest 10
2 x 100; fins; rest 15
1 x 200; paddles; rest 15
1 x 100; fins; rest 15
1 x 400
2 x 100; fins; rest 15
Cool down
25 x 25 wall push ups.
50 x 25 wall push ups.
50 x 25 wall push ups.
50 x 25 wall push ups.
50 x 25 wall push ups.
25 wall push ups.
Total yardage 2050
Frick me! Had my first major freak out. Not only do I have to deal with the wrath of PMS on race day but I also get to race in 90 degree weather. Couldn’t fall asleep last night and when I finally did hit slumber I woke up 2-3 times throughout the night in cold sweats. WTF? Why is this happening? My mind is in a VERY bad place right now. I have a long history with passing out from heat exhaustion. It has a way of sneaking up on me and there I find myself waking in a haze with people staring at me. It’s seriously messed up. I don’t know what happened; all my positive energy has eluded me. I had so many goals for this race and just feel like they have all been stomped on. Not only stomped, but spit on and then kicked to the curb like a bad boyfriend. I really need an escape from my mind right now…things are not good.