Monday, May 17, 2010

Proof I'm still alive

I've received a few thoughtful emails from those near and dear and those that are random strangers that occasionally follow my blog and care. Thank you much as it means a lot to me. I still haven't found my love to write but I figured I'm post a few pictures happy pictures to show that the light is shinning down the dark tunnel.

Girls night out and I'm trying to rock my boot



I can bike - easy


My pimped out boot


Take two


I re-found my love for oil pastel painting


My mom rockin her well deserved SuperMOM socks


Moi devouring a hot freshly baked chocolate chip cookie


My first open water swim on the season - went very well!


One of my evil achillies - one day I will have strength again


Tryi'ing to get out and enjoy the world


It's amazing what the love of an animal can do

Monday, May 10, 2010

Swept up in one hell of a tornado

I ended up in the dark side of Oz w/out a yellow brick road.
I am a lion with/out courage, a scarecrow with her head stuck up her a$$(this explains me lack of intelligence over the last few weeks) and a tin(wo)man who's lost her heart. I'm stuck watching what I eat for fear of turning into an ompa loompa. Maybe I'll be able to slay this internal Jabberwalkey and escape this hell hole of a wonderland.

If only I could click my Tim DeBoom Tri Fly's 3 times and wake up from this nightmare. There's no place like triathlon, there's no place like triathlon, there's no place like traithlon.....

I'll be on a blogging hiatus until I find my heart and soul.....

"Damn...I'm broke, my feet hurt" - Ice Cube Down for Whatever

"It's so much pain, migraine, headache I can hear the bones break" - Ice Cube Natural Born Killaz

"Always do your best, don't let the pressure make you panic
And when you get stranded
And things don't go the way you planned it"
- Tupac - Me Against The World

"You didn't think it was going to be that easy did you?
Yea, for a moment there....I kind of did."
- Kill Bill theme song

"Like a heartbeat, drives you mad
In the stillness of remembering
What you had, And what you lost
Ooooh, say what you had, you know what you lost"
- Fleetwood Mac -Dreams

"You were my thrills, you were my pills
You dropped a bomb on me
You turn me out, you turn me on
You turned me loose, then you turned me wrong"
- Gap Band - You Dropped A Bomb On Me

What a wicked game you play
To make me feel this way
What a wicked thing to do
To let me dream of you
- Chris Isaak - Wicked Game

"Sometimes I feel a little mad
But don't you know that no one alive
Can always be an angel
When things go wrong I seem to be bad
But I'm just a soul whose intentions are good
Oh Lord, please don't let me be misunderstood"
- The Animal - Misunderstood

"Oh, a storm is threat'ning
My very life today
If I don't get some shelter
Oh yeah, I'm gonna fade away"
The Rolling Stones - Gimme Shelter

"I Fell Into A Burning Ring Of Fire
I Went Down, Down, Down
And The Flames Went Higher"
- Johnny Cash - Ring Of Fire

"If I go crazy then will you still
Call me Superman
If I'm alive and well, will you be
There holding my hand
I'll keep you by my side with
My superhuman might
Kryptonite"
- 3 Doors Down - Kryptonite

Monday, May 3, 2010

When you find yourself flat on your back the only way to look is up

Friday I got the final KO. You know, I was ok with not doing Wildflower HIM. Once I was told that I could do CdA but it would not be the race I would want I was OK backing out of that as well. The final hit was when I was advised against doing our annual work team building Canby Gator Grinder. I am still swimming with a pull buoy and bands. I still can not flip turn off the pool wall let alone push off with any sort of power. I have not biked outside in almost 2 weeks and have stayed in zone 1/2 on the trainer. I can not run. Put all of those "can not's" together and I can not do a sprint triathlon. This hit was the hardest. Not because I wanted to race a sprint. Those who know me know I HATE sprints. They are too short and I personally like the concept of breathing. The reason it hit so hard was the feeling of failing my team, my work and most of all my boss. I allowed this injury to happen. I "ran" my legs into the ground. This year I will not be apart of our annual team building and that saddens me more then I can express. I will of course be on the side lines cheering for each and every one of my co-workers as loud as I can.....but a small part of my heart will be missing.

Speaking of cheering....my roommate Jesse ran her first marathon on Sunday. Goooooo Jesse! Saturday night I took it upon myself to carb load as well as she treated me a wonderful dinner and then to a delicatessen from The Sweet Life. I opted for peanut butter chocolate chip cookie and she enjoyed a molasses. Weather turned out to be perfect for race day. High 50s to low 60s without a drop in the sky. I was able to see Jesse at mile 2, mile 10, mile 17 and then at mile 25. She beamed each and every time I saw her. I was thankful to have Michele and Sheryl to help me figure out how to get to the mile markers. I was also thankful this was a looped course as my legs grew tired and very agitated from all the walking. 2.5 hours into cheering I ended up at my car for a quick cat nap and rest my footies. Surprisingly along the course I saw many more friends.....all ran happy - which made me happy. For that entire day there wasn't a drop of sadness in my body. I was inspired by all my friends....living and running their dreams. Jesse, I've said this before and I'll say it again. I am SO PROUD of you. Run on girl! :D

And a other few shout outs
Michele and Sheryl - You two are awesome! Injured and all you trooped around the course cheering on your team all day. Thanks for letting me join you!
Seth - It was great to see you being you - running the marathon and then each and every team member back in. I wish you best of luck towards your 100 miler. You look well on your way.
Tina - You looked great out there!
Carly - Way to achieve your goal! Good job at sticking through the pain.
Diane - You're a tough cookie and very inspiring
Deb - You looked fabulous darling, fabulous. Great run!
Jeremy - Missed you but heard about your great results!
Paul - Congrats on BQing!

On the way home Jesse and I stopped for some recovery Mexican food. I decided that I should join her and eat just as much.....as if I had run a marathon. Oh well, I'll have some weight to use as energy once I'm off of recovery.

Monday - THANKFUL I took the day off of work. From all the driving, lack of sleep, cheering and walking I was an exhausted Kat. Not to mention was attacked by alleriges. I woke up fatigued and my whole body is sore. PMS is not helping anything.

Swim - 2500 yards - drill/sets with pull bouy, bands around my legs and paddles. I thought this was going to be the end of me as my upper body had hurt so much prior to the swim. BUT it wasn't! The swim felt great! I recovered with an hour of pilates to help stretch out the muscles a little more. Plus with the amount of eating I've been doing I REALLY need to make sure I keep my ab muscles in check.

Spent the afternoon cooking for the week. Made a Mexcian bean soup and dirty red beans and rice with shrimp and turkey sausage. Mmmmm, mmmm, good.

And here's a preview of what our fridge looks like on a typical week. Every time it opens it throws up on us.


A 75 min spin Z1/Z2 and my training day was done. I'm finally able to hold low Z2 w/out any pain or muscle fatigue. This is a very good thing. I've been spinning pain free in Z1 but I've had no energy or power to push. My legs have felt gimpy. Today was the first day they started to....should I even say it? They started to feel normal (I just knocked on wood, thank you very much!)

I ended the day picking up a long lost hobby - pastel painting. Unfortunately I bought the chalk based rather than oil based. The next photo should come out better......I call this one Lemonade - a metaphor is you will :)